Did everyone have a great Easter weekend?
March 25th 2008 03:05
I did. Will came back down to Sydney to visit so was able to spend the entire weekend together with him.
It does make me realise that somehow, I don't really miss him that much. Well, I DO miss him, but not I-am-going-to-tear-my-heart-o ut miss him. If you know what I mean. I can live without him, without having to see him that frequently.
Makes me think back perhaps that's why I am able to let go that easily.
But it doesn't mean I don't love him! Gosh I feel I must clarify this point. I am happy with him, but when circumstances must part us for a while, I am not going to cry every night for it. Where as Will seem to find it hard living without me, even though he is busy at uni and stuff, he made sure we spoke every night and made sure I got us some web cams set up so we can see each other over the internet.
I don't think there is anything wrong with me. Perhaps I have just learnt not to be so emotionally attached throughout the years. Especially after falling for CB even though we've already agreed anything between us was just for physical fun, and maybe growing up without my parents also did something to my mentality too.
You know, I fell for CB so hard that after I saw him off at the airport I was crying my hearts out to a poor security guard who didn't know what to do with me. Never have I cried for any men and there I was, flooding the airport floors with salty tears.
Oh, of course I am still upset that I can't see Will everyday! Gosh this is getting harder to explain to a lot of people, including Will. He understands me now so there is no problem, but I have a feeling he is still secretly scared that one day he is going to wake up and find me already packed and gone travelling without him.
Do you still want to hear the past stories? I seem to be getting off the tangent a lot lately
Maybe I am losing my mind I am still stuck in Sydney and not travelling yet!
It does make me realise that somehow, I don't really miss him that much. Well, I DO miss him, but not I-am-going-to-tear-my-heart-o ut miss him. If you know what I mean. I can live without him, without having to see him that frequently.
Makes me think back perhaps that's why I am able to let go that easily.
But it doesn't mean I don't love him! Gosh I feel I must clarify this point. I am happy with him, but when circumstances must part us for a while, I am not going to cry every night for it. Where as Will seem to find it hard living without me, even though he is busy at uni and stuff, he made sure we spoke every night and made sure I got us some web cams set up so we can see each other over the internet.
I don't think there is anything wrong with me. Perhaps I have just learnt not to be so emotionally attached throughout the years. Especially after falling for CB even though we've already agreed anything between us was just for physical fun, and maybe growing up without my parents also did something to my mentality too.
You know, I fell for CB so hard that after I saw him off at the airport I was crying my hearts out to a poor security guard who didn't know what to do with me. Never have I cried for any men and there I was, flooding the airport floors with salty tears.
Oh, of course I am still upset that I can't see Will everyday! Gosh this is getting harder to explain to a lot of people, including Will. He understands me now so there is no problem, but I have a feeling he is still secretly scared that one day he is going to wake up and find me already packed and gone travelling without him.
Do you still want to hear the past stories? I seem to be getting off the tangent a lot lately
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Comment by The wonderful Peter Yang
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Well, at least you have a good time.
GOOD ON YOU MATE
CHEERS
Comment by Hazel Castillo
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I got confused while reading your post, but really you shouldn't be explaining anything to anyone except Will I guess.
glad you had a good easter.
We went to meet our new puppy easter
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