Rediscovering the almost-joy of being alone
February 13th 2009 11:53
I don't want to be mean or unloving or anything, especially on Valentine's Day eve - but you know what? From time to time, I do like being alone.
So you know that Will has already moved back to Sydney because uni is starting in a week and there is a lot to do. I needed a little buffer zone so have opted to stay up in Coffs for another month before moving down permanently.
I have been packing when I am not at work, and spending a lot of time watching DVD and reading, and playing with the cat. The cat takes the other half of the bed where it has been emptied by Will - so she is happy too.
I sleep better when Will is not here, it could be our mattress - it is old and rocks and squeaks as Will toss and turns. I am a light sleeper so the slightest movement or sound will wake me. Now that I have the bed to myself (almost) I sleep a lot better and I wake up less in the middle of the night. What bliss.
I do feel a little lonely though, there is no one but the cat to say good morning to, good night to, and hello to when I come home - and damn, I have to cook my own meals, take out the rubbish, things that Will have been doing so diligently when he is around.
There is no one to discuss the news with, so I just stopped watching. There is no one to remind me of when my favourite shows are on, so I missed Dr. Who repeats 2 weeks in a row now.
So I guess it's all balanced. I do sleep better and enjoy spending time with myself - but I do realise how important Will is to me.
Anyways, I wish all of you a happy Valentine's Day - even though I don't really believe in it, because I think we shouldn't just have one day we can express our love, why not do it every day? - be nice to everyone you love eh?
So you know that Will has already moved back to Sydney because uni is starting in a week and there is a lot to do. I needed a little buffer zone so have opted to stay up in Coffs for another month before moving down permanently.
I have been packing when I am not at work, and spending a lot of time watching DVD and reading, and playing with the cat. The cat takes the other half of the bed where it has been emptied by Will - so she is happy too.
I sleep better when Will is not here, it could be our mattress - it is old and rocks and squeaks as Will toss and turns. I am a light sleeper so the slightest movement or sound will wake me. Now that I have the bed to myself (almost) I sleep a lot better and I wake up less in the middle of the night. What bliss.
I do feel a little lonely though, there is no one but the cat to say good morning to, good night to, and hello to when I come home - and damn, I have to cook my own meals, take out the rubbish, things that Will have been doing so diligently when he is around.
There is no one to discuss the news with, so I just stopped watching. There is no one to remind me of when my favourite shows are on, so I missed Dr. Who repeats 2 weeks in a row now.
So I guess it's all balanced. I do sleep better and enjoy spending time with myself - but I do realise how important Will is to me.
Anyways, I wish all of you a happy Valentine's Day - even though I don't really believe in it, because I think we shouldn't just have one day we can express our love, why not do it every day? - be nice to everyone you love eh?
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